I was recently instructed to take a Long Nights Sit for three consecutive nights as a way to pray for the return of a part of me that has been lost. No matter how much work I do to grow & change into the best that I can be, there is always more that can be done.

Sitting with the nights entirety is something that I do at Yule, occasionally it will spontaneously occur. The space between Sun down & Sun up is spectacular… It has its own rhythm & soul, so different to the rolling pace of the day time. Consciously embarking on a quest in this sacred shadow time is something that I highly recommend.

The drive for this was a calling to seek, an urgent need to reclaim an important part of me. This became the held space for my nights, keeping me alert to the messages coming through & the clues that I was asked to follow. I left myself opened & unbound to structure, which led me down many a wonderful path & set me before incredible people, enlightening rune & tarot readings, interesting midnight snacks & volumes of information to document.

My day times became dreamlike as I meandered through the mundane workings of my life, & I was surprised that I had no desire to catch up on sleep during the light hours. I would find myself excited as the Sun began his descent & eagerly wrap up the mundane world in anticipation of each night.

The hardest part about this process for me was the emotional settling at the end of the three nights. So much had been returned to me which meant that so much of me was falling away, & this was hard for my heart to manage. Thank the Gods for my shamanic mentor or I may be a messy puddle on the floor right now! But here I am, changed in the most exquisite of ways & eager beyond belief to see how this me embraces what will come.

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